Post by Jackie Clovis on Feb 6, 2019 18:44:46 GMT
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Undoubtedly, the best words to describe Jackie are gangly and furtive. Her eyes are a muddy hazel, and usually lie half hidden behind her fringe of limp brown hair, while her face wears an almost perpetual expression of uncertain worry. Her skin is naturally tan, but tinted with a faint paleness that gives it a clammy appearance, not helped by her tendency to nervously sweat. On her better days, she might convince her shoulder length hair into a pony tail, but it's usually not long before it works its way out despite its inherent, lifeless-limpness.
Though she is only a little shorter than six feet, Jackie slouches constantly, and is almost always drawn in upon herself as if in expectation of some kind of attack. Her movements are clumsy and uncoordinated, like she doesn't quite know the proportions of her body, which is narrow and plain. Her fashion sense is demure and unassuming, with Jackie preferring practical blouses and, whenever possible, knee length skirts. When she can be convinced to wear something a little less conservative, she doesn't tend to get much bolder than a simple top and loose-fitting pants. If she can manage it, Jackie will never wear anything that could be considered eye catching, and she tends to stick clear of all but the most washed out and faded colors.
Jackie is, in a word, neurotic. Lacking even the most basic sort of confidence, she is indecisive and reluctant to a fault, and will crack under even the slightest pressure. Adverse to danger, she avoids confrontation wherever possible and, when it's not, resorts to passivity before outright resistance. Even small problems can be a source of great anxiety for Jackie and, given just how unpredictable her life can be, it's very rare for her to not be stressed near to the point of apoplexy.
Inherently shy and unassuming, Jackie prefers to avoid notice where possible and resorts to self deprecation where it is not. She would rather be teased for one of her faults than lauded for any perceived merits and, given that she lacks many traits necessary to being a huntress, there is no shortage of flaws that might be commented upon.
Beneath the neurosis and anxiety, there lies a core, rarely hinted at by her demure behavior and inoffensive attitude. It is a core of deep embitterment and loathing, both for herself and the world around her. Jackie is very judgmental of others, secretly harboring the opinion that everyone else must be at least half as messed up as she is, and she tends to fixate on others flaws and foibles nearly as much as she does her own. Jackie hates this part of herself, this fathomless well of resentment that makes her look down on everyone while, simultaneously and incongruously, seeing herself as even more worthless.
Perhaps the worst part of her life is her strong desire to be 'good'. What 'good' actually is, Jackie has never been able to say, as she perceives the complexity inherent to any moral action. This drive, so very much at odds with the reclusive, introverted, vitriolic creature she is, causes her nearly as much turmoil as her social awkwardness and phobic tendencies. She desperately wants to be someone her parents would have approved of, while at the same time being all but certain that she could never make anyone proud.
Jackie's life has been rocky one. Born in Atlas, her parents were both acclaimed and skilled huntsman, the latest in a long line of skilled and acclaimed huntsman. A quiet girl by nature, Jackie showed herself to be sensitive and inquisitive, both fascinated and frightened by the dangers that lay upon the fringes of civilization. It was these dangers which her parents frequently alluded to in an attempt to impress upon her both the perilous nature of the outside world and that world's need for hunters. Unlike her brother, Jackie never entertained the thought of becoming a huntress, like her ancestors before her, for her's was a gentle and timid nature, ill suited to the rigors of a huntsman's life. She was content for a quiet and peaceful existence, where the hardship and fighting were left to those more capable than her. Seeing their daughter's inclination, Jackie's parents raised her gently, or at least as gently as could be expected from a family with a pedigree such as theirs.
It was when Jackie started school that the first cracks formed beneath the quiet life she wanted for herself. Having not inherited her mother's comely aspect, nor her father's confidence and self respect, Jackie was an awkward child, one easily frightened and even more easily coerced. Adding to her difficulties was a certain precociousness in her character which set her apart from children her own age. She found it difficult to connect with others, though not for want of trying. By the time she first started school, Jackie had only managed to make and retain a single friend who was not her little brother. Things only grew harder from there. Jackie found it hard to relate to her peers, and they found it equally hard to relate to her. To them, she was a cravenly and brattish know-it-all, while she found them brutish and incongruous in their behaviors. Naturally, she was singled out as different and, lacking the eloquence to use such novelty to her advantage, Jackie was frequently bullied for her eccentricities. This set the tone for Jackie's adolescence, wherein she found herself incapable of excelling in any area which her peers might valued, and the one field where she was exceptional managed only to earn her scorn and derision. Naturally, she grew even more reluctant and withdrawn, and would seldom even interact with children her own age if she was not forced to do so.
Seeing their daughter's isolation, Jackie's parents naturally tried to intervene. They made her join sports teams and clubs, set up play-dates and just generally tried to break Jackie out of her shell. Their efforts were in vain, however, as it seemed that everything and anything could be a source of anxiety and dread for the awkward girl. She was too infirm and frail for organized sports, and her strange ideas and precocious tendencies proved just as great a barrier to friendship as they ever had. Clubs turned out to be even more disastrous for, though technical and intelligent, she was even more self-defeating in areas where her specific talents might have let her excel. Jackie shied from every opportunity to set herself apart from her peers, and was ever fearful of drawing attention to herself. Her anxieties were made all the worse by the presence of her brother who, despite being a scant ten months her junior, showed great promise and confidence in just about every area where she was lacking. She grew used to living in his shadow, while at the same time seeking him and him alone for comfort, as he was the only child her age who seemed to understand her. Then, just after she turned twelve, Jackie's life took a strange turn.
There came times where, when Jackie was put under especial pressure, that her personality would undergo a fundamental transformation. These shifts, rare at first, were often characterized by bouts of sudden and vicious aggression, where the usually timid Jackie would lash out violently against whatever had caused the episode to begin with. These attacks were as brief as they were frighteningly sudden, and would leave Jackie bemused and disorientated after, with no memory of what had occurred while she was enraged. There came other instances, less pronounced though still frightening for the young Jackie, where she did not feel as though she were in complete control of her body. Powerful urges would wash over her, urges wholly at odd with her usual temperament. Unsurprisingly, her burgeoning instability drove her peers further away. She earned a reputation for not simply being a know-it-all coward, but one who would violently assault others for the most inexplicable reasons.
It was also around this time that Jackie started talking to herself, holding long and elaborate conversations with some unseen person when she thought nobody was listening. Naturally, her parents got her the help she so obviously needed, and months of therapy and psychiatric medications followed. The treatment was difficult, with Jackie often being uncooperative and, on a few memorable occasions, outright hostile to her parents and the psychiatrists trying to help her. She outright denied the existence of any other person, invisible or imaginary, and tried to attribute her episodes to losing her temper. Then her brother manifested his semblance for the first time, and revealed it to be not unlike their fathers, driving him into an intoxicating rage that lent him incredible strength at the loss of all control.
Then Jackie's story changed. She claimed it was her semblance, that she must have tapped into it on accident, trying to defend herself. Obviously, she reasoned, it would be best for her to receive Huntsman training like her brother, that she might learn to better control it. Despite misgivings and not wholly believing her, Jackie's parents relented and, for a time, her outbursts were less frequent. She expressed little enthusiasm for the training that followed. Her aura was comparatively weak and her control spotty at best. However, whenever she was called upon to actually spar or demonstrate her abilities, Jackie would outperform most of her peers in just about every conceivable way.
Jackie grew increasingly withdrawn over this period. She actively resented the praise of her abilities, even while seeming to glory hound during exercises that called for practical participation of any kind. These displays of power and ability only grew more pronounced as her training continued. Jackie proved to be an exceedingly capable fighter, one utterly unrestrained and undaunted by any challenge. She was also vicious, sometimes even cruel, with a particular inclination towards excessive force.
She was accepted into the Atlas Academy specialist program, and continued to excel all things combat related, though not without certain significant disciplinary issues, such as the frequent unwillingness to follow orders and the strong disinclination to work with others. Jackie has become a polarizing figure on campus, ostracized and reclusive, and basically unseen except while in the arena or on a training mission. She's become the center of campus gossip recently too, and not for her combat record or her disciplinary problems either. Stories abound of a strange woman, not dressed in the Atlesian uniform, being seen around her dorm room at night. A woman bearing an uncanny resemblance to Jackie, or so the scuttlebutt says, except that she is taller and stronger and possessed of piercing golden eyes...
Jacqueline Hildegard Clovis
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Appearance
Undoubtedly, the best words to describe Jackie are gangly and furtive. Her eyes are a muddy hazel, and usually lie half hidden behind her fringe of limp brown hair, while her face wears an almost perpetual expression of uncertain worry. Her skin is naturally tan, but tinted with a faint paleness that gives it a clammy appearance, not helped by her tendency to nervously sweat. On her better days, she might convince her shoulder length hair into a pony tail, but it's usually not long before it works its way out despite its inherent, lifeless-limpness.
Though she is only a little shorter than six feet, Jackie slouches constantly, and is almost always drawn in upon herself as if in expectation of some kind of attack. Her movements are clumsy and uncoordinated, like she doesn't quite know the proportions of her body, which is narrow and plain. Her fashion sense is demure and unassuming, with Jackie preferring practical blouses and, whenever possible, knee length skirts. When she can be convinced to wear something a little less conservative, she doesn't tend to get much bolder than a simple top and loose-fitting pants. If she can manage it, Jackie will never wear anything that could be considered eye catching, and she tends to stick clear of all but the most washed out and faded colors.
Personality
Jackie is, in a word, neurotic. Lacking even the most basic sort of confidence, she is indecisive and reluctant to a fault, and will crack under even the slightest pressure. Adverse to danger, she avoids confrontation wherever possible and, when it's not, resorts to passivity before outright resistance. Even small problems can be a source of great anxiety for Jackie and, given just how unpredictable her life can be, it's very rare for her to not be stressed near to the point of apoplexy.
Inherently shy and unassuming, Jackie prefers to avoid notice where possible and resorts to self deprecation where it is not. She would rather be teased for one of her faults than lauded for any perceived merits and, given that she lacks many traits necessary to being a huntress, there is no shortage of flaws that might be commented upon.
Beneath the neurosis and anxiety, there lies a core, rarely hinted at by her demure behavior and inoffensive attitude. It is a core of deep embitterment and loathing, both for herself and the world around her. Jackie is very judgmental of others, secretly harboring the opinion that everyone else must be at least half as messed up as she is, and she tends to fixate on others flaws and foibles nearly as much as she does her own. Jackie hates this part of herself, this fathomless well of resentment that makes her look down on everyone while, simultaneously and incongruously, seeing herself as even more worthless.
Perhaps the worst part of her life is her strong desire to be 'good'. What 'good' actually is, Jackie has never been able to say, as she perceives the complexity inherent to any moral action. This drive, so very much at odds with the reclusive, introverted, vitriolic creature she is, causes her nearly as much turmoil as her social awkwardness and phobic tendencies. She desperately wants to be someone her parents would have approved of, while at the same time being all but certain that she could never make anyone proud.
History
Jackie's life has been rocky one. Born in Atlas, her parents were both acclaimed and skilled huntsman, the latest in a long line of skilled and acclaimed huntsman. A quiet girl by nature, Jackie showed herself to be sensitive and inquisitive, both fascinated and frightened by the dangers that lay upon the fringes of civilization. It was these dangers which her parents frequently alluded to in an attempt to impress upon her both the perilous nature of the outside world and that world's need for hunters. Unlike her brother, Jackie never entertained the thought of becoming a huntress, like her ancestors before her, for her's was a gentle and timid nature, ill suited to the rigors of a huntsman's life. She was content for a quiet and peaceful existence, where the hardship and fighting were left to those more capable than her. Seeing their daughter's inclination, Jackie's parents raised her gently, or at least as gently as could be expected from a family with a pedigree such as theirs.
It was when Jackie started school that the first cracks formed beneath the quiet life she wanted for herself. Having not inherited her mother's comely aspect, nor her father's confidence and self respect, Jackie was an awkward child, one easily frightened and even more easily coerced. Adding to her difficulties was a certain precociousness in her character which set her apart from children her own age. She found it difficult to connect with others, though not for want of trying. By the time she first started school, Jackie had only managed to make and retain a single friend who was not her little brother. Things only grew harder from there. Jackie found it hard to relate to her peers, and they found it equally hard to relate to her. To them, she was a cravenly and brattish know-it-all, while she found them brutish and incongruous in their behaviors. Naturally, she was singled out as different and, lacking the eloquence to use such novelty to her advantage, Jackie was frequently bullied for her eccentricities. This set the tone for Jackie's adolescence, wherein she found herself incapable of excelling in any area which her peers might valued, and the one field where she was exceptional managed only to earn her scorn and derision. Naturally, she grew even more reluctant and withdrawn, and would seldom even interact with children her own age if she was not forced to do so.
Seeing their daughter's isolation, Jackie's parents naturally tried to intervene. They made her join sports teams and clubs, set up play-dates and just generally tried to break Jackie out of her shell. Their efforts were in vain, however, as it seemed that everything and anything could be a source of anxiety and dread for the awkward girl. She was too infirm and frail for organized sports, and her strange ideas and precocious tendencies proved just as great a barrier to friendship as they ever had. Clubs turned out to be even more disastrous for, though technical and intelligent, she was even more self-defeating in areas where her specific talents might have let her excel. Jackie shied from every opportunity to set herself apart from her peers, and was ever fearful of drawing attention to herself. Her anxieties were made all the worse by the presence of her brother who, despite being a scant ten months her junior, showed great promise and confidence in just about every area where she was lacking. She grew used to living in his shadow, while at the same time seeking him and him alone for comfort, as he was the only child her age who seemed to understand her. Then, just after she turned twelve, Jackie's life took a strange turn.
There came times where, when Jackie was put under especial pressure, that her personality would undergo a fundamental transformation. These shifts, rare at first, were often characterized by bouts of sudden and vicious aggression, where the usually timid Jackie would lash out violently against whatever had caused the episode to begin with. These attacks were as brief as they were frighteningly sudden, and would leave Jackie bemused and disorientated after, with no memory of what had occurred while she was enraged. There came other instances, less pronounced though still frightening for the young Jackie, where she did not feel as though she were in complete control of her body. Powerful urges would wash over her, urges wholly at odd with her usual temperament. Unsurprisingly, her burgeoning instability drove her peers further away. She earned a reputation for not simply being a know-it-all coward, but one who would violently assault others for the most inexplicable reasons.
It was also around this time that Jackie started talking to herself, holding long and elaborate conversations with some unseen person when she thought nobody was listening. Naturally, her parents got her the help she so obviously needed, and months of therapy and psychiatric medications followed. The treatment was difficult, with Jackie often being uncooperative and, on a few memorable occasions, outright hostile to her parents and the psychiatrists trying to help her. She outright denied the existence of any other person, invisible or imaginary, and tried to attribute her episodes to losing her temper. Then her brother manifested his semblance for the first time, and revealed it to be not unlike their fathers, driving him into an intoxicating rage that lent him incredible strength at the loss of all control.
Then Jackie's story changed. She claimed it was her semblance, that she must have tapped into it on accident, trying to defend herself. Obviously, she reasoned, it would be best for her to receive Huntsman training like her brother, that she might learn to better control it. Despite misgivings and not wholly believing her, Jackie's parents relented and, for a time, her outbursts were less frequent. She expressed little enthusiasm for the training that followed. Her aura was comparatively weak and her control spotty at best. However, whenever she was called upon to actually spar or demonstrate her abilities, Jackie would outperform most of her peers in just about every conceivable way.
Jackie grew increasingly withdrawn over this period. She actively resented the praise of her abilities, even while seeming to glory hound during exercises that called for practical participation of any kind. These displays of power and ability only grew more pronounced as her training continued. Jackie proved to be an exceedingly capable fighter, one utterly unrestrained and undaunted by any challenge. She was also vicious, sometimes even cruel, with a particular inclination towards excessive force.
She was accepted into the Atlas Academy specialist program, and continued to excel all things combat related, though not without certain significant disciplinary issues, such as the frequent unwillingness to follow orders and the strong disinclination to work with others. Jackie has become a polarizing figure on campus, ostracized and reclusive, and basically unseen except while in the arena or on a training mission. She's become the center of campus gossip recently too, and not for her combat record or her disciplinary problems either. Stories abound of a strange woman, not dressed in the Atlesian uniform, being seen around her dorm room at night. A woman bearing an uncanny resemblance to Jackie, or so the scuttlebutt says, except that she is taller and stronger and possessed of piercing golden eyes...
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